So, I've been a bit up and down lately. What does that mean? Well, it means that I've been going through an emotional roller coaster since the last time I posted. Nothing huge has happened, just a lot of small things that wouldn't make a difference if they didn't all happen at the same time.
I went to San Francisco a few weeks ago. Had some fun, for the most part, but not all of it was that great. For one, that place is so expensive... For those of you who can't pay the price and don't like crowded places, I would suggest never living there. Haha. Personally, I prefer quiet open spaces. San Francisco is nice to visit, but you better have a lot of cash shaved up or you'll end up like one of the bums on the street within the week. No lie, man. Haha.
So, anyways, I have an odd love of the ocean and the wind. Yea, I know that probably sounds kinda cheesy but it's the truth. I just find myself getting hyper during windy days and sleepy and comfortable when I go to the beach. How many people don't love the feeling of the wind in their hair, honestly? It's gotta be the most invigorating thing that I know. I mean, who doesn't get high off the feeling of ultimate freedom? That's what the wind reminds me of: freedom. Freedom from all the troubles and pains of the world, no ties to anything or anyone.
Yea, I'm a bit odd. I know. Honestly, that's how I like it. :]
A friend of mine is really starting to bother me. Her ignorance and the fact that she lets people push her around is starting to just tick me off. Mostly because of the fact that she knows what she's doing but she doesn't want to change any of it. She claims that she loves the attention and that she doesn't know how to live without a guy, but... yea. I love her and everything, but she needs to grow a backbone or something.
A lot of women these days piss me off. Why? Well, they claim that they can't stand being alone. Now, I know it can be annoying and quite boring but jumping from one person to the next is what fucks you up. When you don't take the time to really get to know someone before you decide that they're going to be the next one in line, that's when you screw up. Truthfully, I wouldn't mind being alone for the rest of my life because I'd rather be alone than be a fuck up. I know that I can take care of myself and that I don't really need anyone else, but I guess I'm just one of the smart ones or something. I have a lover, so I don't need to bother too much on the topic but I do know that if I had to I would live the rest of my days alone. Being a dependent sap must be "in" this season.
Fads and things of that sort piss me off, they really do, because people don't like things or other people because of personal opinions. They like them because everyone else likes them. No originality or individuality these days and that makes me want to go on a rampage and puke out my organs at the same time sometimes.
People ask me what I want to do with my life... well, honestly, I don't know. I want to learn how to do a lot of things like graphic design and game design and even computer graphics and photography. What I would do with all of that I'm not completely sure but I would still like to learn about it. Maybe I'll make a few video/computer games or make a few websites or be a photographer for some magazine or something... I dunno.
Life's just too short for me.
